Letting Go of The Negatives

One of the hardest things I have ever had to do was to let go of the negatives.

From how I viewed myself, to letting go of the disordered thoughts and behaviors I was having and displaying.

I eventually began to feel free. Free to be me, to love who I am. I’m looking back in my mind on the past year, and I am baffled on how far I have come. For instance, I used to never take pictures or let people take pictures of me because I viewed myself negatively. But once I allowed myself to embrace self-love I could finally have someone take my photo. I could take a photo and not have some negative emotion or thought come over me.

What worked best for me?

I literally had to put all the negative thoughts and negative behaviors out and I had to process them out. I came to a conclusion that I was making claims about myself that were not true; at times I believed them as an excuse to stay sick and disordered.

Today when those thoughts come up I totally know how to fight back. I roar back. See, I have learned that the thoughts I have don’t have to stay negative. You can flip a negative thought. In one of my previous blog entries I was talking about how sometimes you literally have to choose everyday to tell yourself that you are beautiful, strong, that you are a warrior, but not just any warrior. You are a Self-Love Warrior. A diamond in the ruff!!

I tell myself that everyday, so that on the “rough days” I can be ready for it. Somedays self-love is not easy, but what I learned to be true is that “eventually it will get better.” I hold onto that and it makes it easier. And I learned that self-love comes with time, self-care and watching others in their self-love journey.

This concept of letting go, I wish that it was easy. I wish that there was a magic pill, but I learned that self-love would eventually get me there, that self-love has gotten me there and that self-love will continue to keep me there.


Radically Love,


Sunny with a chance of me



About Sunny With A Chance of Me

Hey, I'm Lila, 23, Musician, Dance, Photography, Pre- Med Major. GCU. Singer, Activist, Believer, Awesomesauce, Self-Love Warrior Intern. I am Recovering, Inspiring, Thriving, Surviving, Conquering and Zesting others with my charm. This is blog of my recovery, my journey, and my life. From Self-Hate to Self- Love! SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO LOOK YOUR LION IN THE FACE AND ROOOOOOAAAAAAARRRR BACK!
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