When I came home after 1 year of traveling around Europe, I had lost a considerable amount of weight. I hadn’t really noticed it until my clothes literally started to fall off. I’ve always LOVED the way I looked because I’ve never considered myself fat or thin. I have always been perfectly proportionate to my body type. I’m tall with HUGE boobs, legs for days and no ass.
That’s me and it’s what I’m comfortable with.
Now I’m tall, a bit thin, huge boobs, legs for days and still no ass. TMI, but during my last period my back was in some serious pain. My boobs were swollen and my roommate immediately thought, “Well, your frame is smaller, and your body is getting used to holding that weight now.” I objected to this hypothesis, but then after some serious thought, I thought, what if she’s right?
Nashiva continued, “Well, your frame is smaller, so all of your weight is concentrated in one area = boobs. Before, you had more weight around your waist, hips and thighs, so it was better distributed throughout your body.” Who asked her anyways?!? I don’t get it!
I really just DIDN’T want to understand. I didn’t expect that one could lose weight without focusing on wanting to lose weight. I wasn’t working out. I wasn’t following diets. Instead, I ate locally, I went outside and walked around the streets of Florence and really took advantage of the wine.
So it’s not about how my body changed, but my attitude towards it. Does it matter how one loses or gains weight? To some, maybe, but to me, as long as I am a happy and healthy me, what else could I ask for? We fixate on superficial ideals of beauty instead of looking at what is already beautiful.
My body is my wonderland. It changes on a daily basis, goes through awful pain, yet I love it all the same. I have much to discover. Every inch of my skin embodies softness combined with discoloration due to my history of eczema. Something about the way my hair never curls in the exact place I want it to or the shape my body creates in the perfect pair of jeans. As I look through the looking glass I couldn’t wonder more about this body that I adore!
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