Battle you say? Yes, battle I say. When I saw this invite from a friend, I figured it could not hurt to take a look at it. See what the fun was about. So I spent a couple of days reading the website, checking things out. After all of that I realized what this was… It was a war on oneself. A war to erase the harm that has been done over the years from various sources. I woke up this morning and took stalk in who I am and what I expect from myself. What I realized is that I have a lot of work to do. Though I do respect me, I do not love me. I have taken all of the things around me to heart, taken them personally and convinced myself that I am unworthy, that I am not good enough and that I do not deserve… well, many things, including to expect love and respect from myself. I could go on and on about my faults, and what I need to do to change, but that is not what I am taking from this exercise. What I am taking is that no matter what is happening in my life, to my life, because of my life… I am a good person, and I can love me. Instead of focusing solely on what I can CHANGE to be a better person, I can focus on what I am already doing and who I already am that makes me a good person. I can nurture and feed those positive things and let them be the dominating factor of me. Today I am accomplishing this with a letter to myself. Will this be the format I choose for the entire 31 days? Who knows. Why pin myself into one form of acceptance, when I can work on the acceptance in whatever form it choose to take!
Well, the last almost 35 years have been a rollercoaster! So many ups and downs, so many life changing events… Heck, waking up and getting out of bed is a life changing decision. Why? Because it is a decision that you have made and every decision shapes the path we are on. First off, I would like to congratulate you on taking that step out of your comfort zone to participate in the 31-day challenge to help you come to love yourself more. I would request that you take this challenge with and open mind, and the ONLY request I have to make from you is that somewhere in your contribution each day, you include at least one positive thing about yourself, or positive thing you have done.
I understand that this is not the easiest of tasks… right now, but who knows how you will evolve through the project! Right now it is very difficult to write this withOUT including things you want to change or fix, and so far, I am so very proud of you for not! That is a step! Each step forward gets us that much closer to our goal and each one back is a chance to relearn something, or take another look at something we might not had enough time learning the first go around. Or, as some like to call it, a Cha Cha! This girl likes to dance, so let us Cha Cha, let us learn and grow and… with an open mind and an open heart, who knows where we may end up!!
Today I would like to say I am very proud of you for taking the initiative and starting this blog. I am also proud of you for making and surpassing you 10,000 step a day promise to yourself! Seeing that almost 18,000 steps slide on the screen was such an amazing feeling. I know that there are downsides to today’s… over-achievement and that is not a worry, it is nothing we have not faced and overcome before! There is a happy medium and your eagerness to keep looking for it is the right attitude to take! Good job on you! You are an amazing being who loves wholeheartedly, and puts a lot on effort in making sure others feel loved and accepted. Now is the time to put some of that effort in loving and accepting yourself! You are worth it, and one day you will see it!
Here is to keeping up the good work, and never giving up on yourself! You ARE worth it!
This self-love post was submitted for the 31-Day Self-Love Writing Challenge. Even though January is over, you can continue to write from the prompts if they inspire you. March’s self-love writing prompt is the Body Path. You can continue to share your self-love journey with the Love Warrior Community by submitting your self-love posts to be published here on Self-Love Warrior, or you can share them on the Self-Love Diet Facebook page.