For years I loathed myself because I always looked at others and thought they were better than me. Some people who I had trained and/or mentored, seemed to be doing better than me in my own field. It was driving me insane… to the point where I really hated myself.
Recently though, I realized that, we are all different and that I am worthy. I am worth loving and that the only person who could truly love me was me.
Part of this love meant me looking at myself and thinking about what I want to do. Doing photography, while helping others, wasn’t for me in terms of being a career. I write poetry for fun and because I was running to promote my book… I lost that love too. Photo, video and poetry hadn’t been fun because I was trying to make it a means of money and not helping others.
I want to help others in learning about what electricity does in helping with the expansion of technology. I saw that being an electrician would be where I could be and love me! I can install stuff and help others. So I am making that change.
The other part of loving me meant me realizing that I need to take care of my heart. I love hard and sometimes, it has back fired. So for now, I am choosing to be single and celibate. I can find myself and love that woman! She needs love!
Find what you want and know that you are worthy of being loved!
Editor’s Note: KDM has a crowdfunding campaign to help fund her electrician apprenticeship, as well as the cost for the Lesbians Who Tech Summit. You can check it out here.
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