The opening paragraph of A Tale of Two Cities described my day; “It was the best of times, it was the worst of times, …”
My inner critic has been throwing me around like a rag doll lately, and it doesn’t feel good. Tonight, it hit me, I need to fire my judge, and hire a new one. The advice from my mom’s latest self-love post hit home for me. I need to hire an ethical, compassionate and knowledgable judge.
Lately, I’ve been feeling like I’m always behind. I’m not doing enough. I’m letting people down. I’m not doing good enough, but that’s not true.
I’ve recently proposed to restructure my job with Curve Magazine, and I went from managing Curve’s Facebook page to managing an expanded social media platform and a team of 10 social media interns. Because I’m creating something new, there’s a lot of work that goes into shaping what I’m doing, which is why I’m constantly feeling like I’m falling behind, but I’m being too harsh on myself.
Instead of criticizing myself for not finishing X yet, for not getting to Y yet and for still having to do B, Z and D, I’m going to toot my own horn and celebrate what I have done.
- About 3 months ago, I proposed to restructure my social media job with Curve, and they said yes, and now I’m doing it.
- I proposed a huge online Curve subscription Drive campaign that will be huge for Curve and life-changing for myself, and Curve said yes.
- Curve approached me about hiring me as a full-time staff in the near future.
- I put out a call for Curve Social Media Interns (Curve SMIs), got a lot of applicants, went through them and picked ten. For the past month and a half, I have been managing 10 Curve SMIs, from New Jersey, Colorado, Ohio, Pennsylvania, South Carolina, Salem, Massachusetts, Maine, Scotland and England.
- With the Curve Social Media Team, we’ve been able to take Curve Facebook and Twitter to the next level.
- We created a Curve Pinterest, a Curve social media email account and a Curve Google+ page.
- We created a Curve YouTube channel.
- I’ve not only been training and guiding the social media interns in managing the different social media accounts, but I’ve also been guiding them in creating their own Curve video blog (vlog), and I’m so proud of them. 🙂
- Three of the Curve SMIs published their first episode from their Curve vlog:
- Lauren Leiggi’s first episode from her Curve vlog, Too Many Tolls, about navigating long-distance relationships.
- Sarita Ramirez’ first episode from her Curve vlog, The Curve Drive-In, where she’ll review queer and mainstream films.
- Amanda Guilford’s first episode from her Curve vlog, My Shiny Universe, where she’ll discuss queer geek culture.
- I’m working with the Curve SMIs on writing articles for curvemag.com. One of them submitted an article to me and two more are working on their first article for curvemag.com.
- A lot of my Curve SMIs wanted to manage a Curve booth at their local Pride. I’ve been helping them get a Curve booth at their Prides and have gotten most of them press passes for their Prides, the farthest one being in Berlin, Germany. This past weekend, one of my interns, Dina Faye Gilmore, managed her Curve booth in Denver, another one, Amanda Guilford, got to interview people and take a lot of photos and video for Curve social media with her press pass for Southern Maine Pride and two of my interns, Kristen Hawley and Abby Slater, did social media coverage for Pittsburgh Pride.
- Dina did an AMAZING job with managing her Curve booth in Denver, Colorado. 🙂 We had some mix ups with reserving the vendor space at Denver Pride, and ended up not getting an actual booth or canopy, just the space. Dina was able to borrow a booth from someone, and she bought a canopy. She also made the Curve sign for her booth, which looks professional. She organized and gathered her volunteers, created games for the booth, sold 60 Curve subscriptions and posted great photos and videos from Denver Pride. She was our first Curve SMI to manage a Curve booth, and she did a Fantastic job.
- Her first video post from Denver Pride.
- Dina’s Facebook photo album of Denver Pride.
- Amanda’s Facebook photo album of Southern Maine Pride.
- Kristen and Abby’s Facebook photo album of Pittsburgh Pride.
- I wanted each of my Curve SMIs to have customized Curve Social Media Team t-shirts. I ran the idea by the owner and told one of my social media interns, Dina, about my idea of connecting with our Curve FB fans and suggesting a trade of a curvemag.com article and social media promotion in exchange for custom made shirts. Dina made my idea come to life, and now we all have our own custom made Curve Social Media Team t-shirts!
- Aside from all of the above, a lot more has happened, including watching and guiding the growth and development of my social media interns and our team, and it has been wonderful, yet also exhausting. I need to spend more time with those wonderful moments.
I have a lot to be proud of and excited about it, but I notice myself feeling overwhelmed and down on myself. Because I’m starting such a big initiative and I’m creating it from scratch, there’s so much to build, and I constantly feel like it all needs to be done now, but that’s not realistic and it’s not healthy, and holding onto those beliefs hold me back and bring me down.
So, I want to fire my negative and overly critical judge and hire a new one that cheers me on and lifts me up.
I also want to do more energy and breath work and more Qigong. I think adding this to my daily self-love practice will help me to build upon my newly hired ethical, compassionate and knowledgeable judge.
– Emelina Minero
Michelle Minero, the Co-Founder of this blog and the overarching Love Warrior Community published her book, Self-Love Diet: The Only Diet That Works. You can buy her book online or at stores in Petaluma, Sonoma and Healdsburg, California. For upcoming events and book signings, visit Michelle’s Events page.
Emelina Minero writes for Curve Magazine and EDGE Gay Media Network, and is Curve’s Social Media Manager. She’s launching her own progressive LGBTQ publication, The Human Experience. She’s a Connection Connoisseur, Networking Maven and Self-Love Enthusiast. She founded Community Bucket List and co-founded the Love Warrior Community. Find her on Twitter, @CommKr8veWriter.