Today has been largely a lethargic day. I was struggling a lot more with my energy and motivation than usual. For an our or two I was becoming increasingly frustrated with myself as the day was going by and I was barely touching the work that I need to get done today.
For the past month or so, since I’ve been consciously tracking my energy, I’ve noticed that about 4 to 6 days out of the week it fluctuates throughout the day to various levels of low energy, but it doesn’t inhibit me from getting my work done or enjoying my day. I notice it, and then it passes.
Today it was more difficult to notice it without judgement. For a large portion of the day, I felt this pressure pushing down on my head, leaching on my drive and motivation. My thoughts began to quicken at a water faucet pace that was difficult to turn off. I took a nap to rest my mind, but I felt the same when I woke up. I contemplated riding my bike to a local coffee shop to get some work done in a more lively, peopled environment, but the spiders and webs on my bike deterred me from that. 🙂 I began to clean to clear my physical environment, but that didn’t change my energy. Then I thought about using eye shadow to put those lines under my eyes, like football players have. I thought maybe that would put more pep into getting me motivated to work. I didn’t find any eye shadow, but I had liquid eyeliner, which takes a lot of concentration for me to put on without getting it all over my face.
As I was focusing on trying to stay within the invisible lines near my eyes, I noticed my thoughts slowing down and the jumbled energy in my body and mind calm down. In those moments, I reminded myself of something I have been telling myself almost daily for the past month or so: I can have low energy and function. I can have low energy and be happy. I can have low energy and be effective. I have can have low energy and be at peace and love myself and the moment at hand. I know these things are true because for the past month or so I’ve been cycling through low energy periods and I’ve been functioning, effective, happy and at peace and in love with myself and life.
My energy was a lot lower today and because of that it was more difficult for me to feel at peace. At one point, when my frustration was rising, I sat down and told myself that this will happen. I’ll experience energy shifts like this, probably frequently, and that struggling against it only makes the situation worse. The best thing for me to do is to accept where my energy is at and to make the best decisions that I can in the moment, and to not feed my low energy, but to try to move past it, and if I can’t move past it in the moment, then to be at peace with it and to go with the flow without feeding into any negativity.
Today, I came to peace with my energy, let go of my frustration and reminded myself to focus on one thing at a time.
– Emelina Minero
Michelle Minero, the Co-Founder of this blog and the overarching Love Warrior Community published her book, Self-Love Diet: The Only Diet That Works. You can buy her book online or at stores in Petaluma, Sonoma and Healdsburg, California. For upcoming events and book signings, starting May 30th, visit Michelle’s Events page.
Emelina Minero writes for Curve Magazine and EDGE Gay Media Network, and is Curve’s Social Media Manager. She’s launching her own progressive LGBTQ publication, The Human Experience. She’s a Connection Connoisseur, Networking Maven and Self-Love Enthusiast. She founded Community Bucket List and co-founded the Love Warrior Community. Find her on Twitter, @CommKr8veWriter.