I could have easily labeled this self-love post the power of positive thought.
I live my life motivated by what impassions me. My passions drive my thoughts, my actions and my experiences, and for the past 5 months I have been reflecting on and reevaluating my passions. I’ve been going through this journey to rediscover my passions and to uncover why they resonate with me.
This past January, since I’ve been focusing more actively on self-love and developing my self-love practice, I’ve been feeling this great sense of calm and self-empowerment, but my life has still been lacking something – that spark, that explosion of energy that’s derived from my passions, that crystal clear focus and drive that comes from the complete attunement of when my thoughts, emotions and body are viscerally connected with my passions.
Through participating in the Self-Love Writing Challenge this month, I’ve become a lot more self-aware. Each January I commit to actively focusing on self-love and each year a veil is lifted from my mind.
Year-round I consciously have a self-love focus in mind, but when January comes around, Self-Love Month, I take my self-love practice to a deeper level by actively thinking about it and by focusing on ways to bring more self-love into my every day life.
This deeper self-awareness that comes from my deeper commitment to myself and cultivating self-love has made me realize that a handful of thoughts, dating back to September, is what made me believe that I lost my passions. A couple of the thoughts were negative, but a lot of them were neutral thoughts, self-reflective thoughts exploring my identity, my beliefs and my passions, but coupled with those negative thoughts it swayed my opinions about myself and my passions, and since then I’ve been on this journey to reconnect to my passions and to reconnect with myself.
When I’m connected to myself on that deeper level, I know who I am, I know what I want, I know what I’m capable of and I know what drives me. When I’m connected with myself on that deeper level, this knowledge exists beyond just knowing. It’s something that I feel and that I embody. When I connect with myself on that deeper level, I believe in myself and my dreams completely. It’s freeing and uninhibiting.
From knowing what I want, it makes it easy for me to decide on something and to fully commit to it, and when I commit to something in that way, I’m unstoppable. When I decide on something whole heartedly, my dreams manifest instantaneously because my eyes, my thoughts, my heart, every part of me becomes open to all of the possibilities and opportunities around me. My energy shifts to a higher awareness that naturally seeks out and attracts exactly what I need to manifest my passions.
Dating back to September, one of the thoughts I implanted into my consciousness was doubt, and I didn’t even realize it until now. The extra effort I have been putting into strengthening my self-love practice this month has increased my self-awareness, and by increasing my self-awareness, I have unmasked thoughts and habits that I had normalized and I have been able to see their true nature as self-destructive and false beliefs that have been hindering me from moving forward with my passions.
I was talking to my brother on the phone tonight. He moved to LA about 3 weeks ago to pursue acting. When I tell people this, some of the reactions I get are unintentionally negative. I’ve been told that the entertainment industry is hard to break into and that only one in X million people actually make it. When I say in so many ways that my brother is different and that he has the amazing ability to manifest his dreams, I don’t think it resonates with people – because we live in a culture that confines human beings and the human potential into boxes and labels.
As a culture, we have a fixed idea of what’s possible. Most people believe the status quo and it may not even occur to them to question it. We live in a culture that fosters self-criticism and normalizes self-dissatisfaction. It makes sense that people’s views on what’s possible and their own potential would be self-limiting and that they would project that onto others’ dreams because it’s the response that has been normalized by society.
This leads back to the power of thought. Possible is a concept. There are no defined restrictions on possible except the ones that we create. I had this same realization back in June 14 of 2011. I wrote about it in a self-love post titled “Bucket List.” I realized that limitation is a mindset, and that the only limits or restrictions in my life are those that I impose upon myself.
Which leads back to the phone conversation with my brother and him moving to LA to pursue acting. One of his friends who has been out there for 7 years told him that he has never seen anyone progress as quickly as my brother, and Albert has only been out there for about 3 weeks. He told my brother that by the end of the year he sees him landing a breakthrough role for his career.
I hear a lot of stories from people who move to LA, New York, any place new to make it big, and a lot of those stories sound like excuses, and the messages that they are relaying to me are messages of self-defeat. They don’t believe in themselves. They aren’t fully committed to their dreams and because of that they don’t try and they hold themselves back and because of that they have already failed their dreams. The reality that they are cultivating for themselves is one of failure, so they fail.
On the flip side, my brother has been doing something every day since he’s moved to LA. He’s making opportunities happen for himself. A handful of times he seized opportunities that seemed insignificant and a waste of time, but then he changed his outlook and those seemingly insignificant experiences evolved into grander opportunities that don’t normally happen for the every day person.
A few of the things that he has made happen in the past 3 weeks:
He booked an audition and was taped on the John Kerwin Show, which will air in a couple of weeks. In March he will be featured on a radio show for a 45 minute slot where he’ll be able to talk about and promote anything. He booked a paid gig to play Jonah Hill. He got a part as an extra on a TV show, started to joke around and interact with two of the people on set and later realized that they were filming him. One of the people told him that he was incredibly funny, asked for his email and sat down and talked to him when they were done filming. Albert realized that the person talking to him was the star of the show and he told Albert that he wants to work with him on future projects that he produces. Albert auditioned for Groundlings, a prestigious improv school, and he passed his audition and was accepted. He has an agent who wants to work with him on commercials, and he has two management companies who both want to work with him. And this is only a fraction of what he has manifested in the past 3 weeks.
His energy, conviction and drive is contagious. I picked up on it through the phone, and it inspired this self-love post. It made me realize that my disconnect from my passions and my drive was self-manifested, and now that I’m aware of it, it’s something that I can change.
The momentum that he’s built in the past 3 weeks through living his passions is not foreign to me. I’ve manifested my own larger than life dreams, on a big scale, since high school, on a smaller scale, my imagination has always driven my reality.
On a thought level, I know that I’m capable of manifesting anything that I set my mind to, no matter how big or out of reach it may seem because I’ve done it before, and repeatedly. On an emotional level, there’s a disconnect with what I know is true about myself.
I need to release my self-doubt, take hold of my passions and once again continue to dream for a living.
Where do I start? I need to regain my belief in myself. I know that I believe in myself, but knowing it isn’t enough. I also need to feel it. I need to feel it beyond my body; it needs to become me. When I believe in myself unconditionally, that belief is no longer an aspect of myself or an attribute, it’s who I am. It’s how I see and interact with the world.
I’ll start by cultivating new thoughts and habits that reflect the unconditional trust and belief that I have in myself, and soon it will manifest.
“As vast as your vision can show,
As high as your highest dreams grow,
As far as your passion can reach –
These are the places you’ll go.”
– Emelina Minero
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Emelina Minero writes for Curve Magazine and EDGE Gay Media Network, and is Curve’s Social Media Manager. She’s launching her own progressive LGBTQ publication, The Human Experience. She’s a Connection Connoisseur, Networking Maven and Self-Love Enthusiast. She founded Community Bucket List and co-founded the Love Warrior Community. Find her on Twitter, @CommKr8veWriter.