“Feel the inner smile.”
I remembered part of my dream last night. My brother told me that he knew the key to my happiness. I need to live according to my energy frequency, and that my focus happens in periods of 20 minutes, and that by looking through those periods I can find my truth. We looked at things together, not really for 20 minutes, but we’d focus on things together. He asked me what I saw. I saw light, a yellow light reflecting off of something, and then I saw a yellow ball of light that turned into a smiley face.
I woke up to my mom trying to figure out how to work the DVD player so she could do the Qigong dvd. Half asleep, I walked her through it, and then I got up and joined her.
The whole time, I was focusing and refocusing on light and warm yellow energy throughout my body, and towards the end of the dvd, I heard, “Feel the pure energy of your big heart. Feel the inner smile.” I imagined the yellow energy from my dream that turned into a smiley face, and it made me think of my inner smile, my heart and the pure energy that’s within me.
I felt stiff when I began doing the Qigong. I was trying to focus on letting go of my everyday thoughts and I was trying to refocus them on light and a warm energy that I imagined within my body, coming from my body and coming into my body from the earth, the sea, the sky, from people, strangers, other human beings inhabiting the world. I imagined good things, terrible things and I imagined all of those experiences and events, both good and bad, as just energy. I went back and forth between trying to focus on energy and feeling the energy, not needing to focus on it and just being with it.
I usually start the day off by going to my computer and jumping into some form of work, and I tell myself that tomorrow, or the next day or the next that I can start my day differently, with a walk outside, with Qigong, with something that’s good for my well-being and that gets my body moving.
Today I did that. Starting my day with Qigong and focusing on positive and loving energy was my conscious loving act towards myself.
– Emelina Minero
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Emelina Minero writes for Curve Magazine and EDGE Gay Media Network, and is Curve’s Social Media Manager. She’s launching her own progressive LGBTQ publication, The Human Experience. She’s a Connection Connoisseur, Networking Maven and Self-Love Enthusiast. She founded Community Bucket List and co-founded the Love Warrior Community. Find her on Twitter, @CommKr8veWriter.