Can I Accept My Brilliance?

October’s self-love writing prompt is: Can you accept your brilliance?

My answer: Yes, and No.

Yes because I know my talents, abilities, skills and strengths and I know that I rock them. I know my character and myself as a human being and I love who I am. I know that I can accomplish anything I decide to accomplish, however grandiose it may appear. I had larger than life passions and goals in the past that I fulfilled and experienced, and I continue to have larger than life passions and goals that I am experiencing right now, and that I’ll continue to experience. I’m creative, intelligent, passionate, loving, supportive and most definitely brilliant.

Yes, yes I can accept my brilliance.

Why did I also answer no? I experience mental snags where I inhibit my own brilliance. Sometimes it appears in the form of self-doubt. I won’t do a good enough job at X. Sometimes it manifests in lack of focus, which then leads to frustration, which then leads to negative thoughts, like Why am I not meeting my potential? Why haven’t I already reached X goal? I’m lazy, unmotivated and lack discipline. Why am I holding myself back? Because I can’t focus. I’ll never be able to feel like an “adult” if I can’t learn to harness my own focus. Or I’ll let societal expectations bring me down. Why am I not yet financially independent? I’m going to drown in student loans. If I can’t even support myself, how will I do anything in life?

When I say these thoughts out loud, and consciously become aware of them, they begin to sound silly. I know that soon I will be financially independent. I will be able to start paying my student loans soon. I am meeting my potential. I like how I’m evolving as a human being. Yet, some of that doubt is grounded in reality. I do have a difficulty with focusing, but that doesn’t mean that I have to let it take over my life. I have been able to apply my focus on small and huge projects in the past. I have been able to apply my focus and follow through on a number of things. I know that I can focus.

My own negative thoughts sometimes stop me from accepting my brilliance, but at my core, I know what I’m capable of. Whenever I forget my brilliance, or get off track with negative self-talk, I just need to stop, really think about what thoughts I’m cultivating and remind myself of my brilliance.

Can I accept my brilliance? Yes.

– Emelina Minero

Emelina Minero writes for Curve Magazine and EDGE Gay Media Network, and is Curve’s Social Media Manager. She’s launching her own progressive LGBTQ publication, The Human Experience. She’s a Connection Connoisseur, Networking Maven and Self-Love Enthusiast. She founded Community Bucket List and co-founded the Love Warrior Community. Find her on Twitter, @CommKr8veWriter.

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I'm passionate about people, community, self-love and the diversity in the human experience.
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3 Responses to Can I Accept My Brilliance?

  1. Pingback: Can I Accept My Brilliance? « Emelina Minero Writes

  2. Nice! I feel privileged to hear your process of accepting your brilliance. It was similar to my back and forth ping pong game in my mind. Ultimately we both were able to accept our brilliance. There is a light in everybody that can be dimmed by our thoughts, or can be made more brilliant by what we think to ourselves! I’m hoping more Love Warriors will comment and share their thoughts on this prompt tool

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