I was overwhelmed yesterday. I’m starting to add more onto my plate, after not being extraordinarily organized in the first place due to losing my passion and energy for accomplishing tasks and my life goals.
But adding these new tasks and creating new goals has started to reinvigorate me to give me the focus and energy I need to start exceeding in my current obligations and goals and the new ones I’m forming. Although I was overwhelmed yesterday, I think it was just the kick in the ass I needed to begin refueling my energy and passion.
Sometimes I need to be doing more to accomplish everything I’m doing. I need to feel challenged & I need to feel like what I’m doing has a purpose and contributes to the progression of my overall life goals. I’m starting to feel like that again.
I woke up feeling well rested and energized after little sleep. I woke up at 5:30 am and researched a potential person that I’ll interview for Curve Magazine, and then I did some Qigong. After Qigong, I stretched a bit, and then exhaustion and anxiety took over me.
Today I need to prepare interview questions for a phone interview at 1 pm for Curve Magazine, as well as write interview questions to email someone for Curve Magazine and for the EDRS blog. This is on top of other tasks I want to accomplish today.
Usually, I spend a lot of time researching the people I’ll interview and preparing the questions. This morning I began to think, “I won’t get the questions done in time for the 1 pm interview. I won’t ask good questions. I won’t be prepared. I won’t complete everything I want to today. I don’t have time. I’m going to fail.”
First off, I’m glad I realized I was having those thoughts – because it inspired me to question them and to write this self-love post.
Secondly, it’s crazy insane that I would even think those thoughts. Although I like a lot of prep time for interviews, I don’t need it. I have done phone interviews with 30 to 60 minutes of prep time before an interview and they have turned out really well. In some cases, I came up with interview questions in a matter of 10 to 20 minutes. In another case, my editor had questions that she wanted me to ask and shortly after I realized that the questions didn’t apply to the interviewee and I had to ask her fitting questions on the spot. Two weekends ago, I interviewed a group of people in-person, on the red carpet at the GLAAD Media Awards. There were people who were not mentioned as attendees, and I didn’t prep any questions for them. I interviewed them and it turned out flawlessly. I didn’t even know who some of them were. And it was fine.
With all of that knowledge, I should not be nervous. I am great at interviewing people because I love connecting with people, understanding their story, listening to them, making them feel comfortable, and so on. I’m a natural conversationalist.
This morning I was telling myself that it would take me forever to come up with questions for my 1 pm interview, but it doesn’t have to. I told myself that I would not be able to come up with questions for the two email interviews, or that it would take forever, but it doesn’t have to.
I was telling myself, “I can’t. I can’t. I can’t.” And I started to believe it, but that is furthest from the truth. When I caught myself talking negatively towards myself, I instantly changed my thoughts to, “Yes I can do this, and it will be easy and fun because it’s something that I have been doing, and something that I love to do.”
Emelina Minero writes for Curve Magazine and EDGE Gay Media Network. She’s working on launching her own progressive LGBTQ publication. She’s a Connection Connoisseur, Networking Maven and Self-Love Enthusiast. She founded Community Bucket List and co-founded the Love Warrior Community. Find her on Twitter, @CommKr8veWriter.