My Strongest Connection

Self-love 2.8.2012

It’s hard to trust someone the second time around after they already gave you one reason not to trust them. After a while their words embody the picture above: bitter, acidic and very cold. It takes a toll on me when I can’t trust a person anymore because I think over time everything they ever said was a lie. I go deep within myself to try and filter between the truth and all the lies. This place is very dark and complicated especially when trying to escape. Then when I’m finally tired of fishing through dreams, realities, hopes and wishes I finally give up and let go. It sucks when you learn that there are awful people in the world especially when the world was so much better when you thought you could give your full trust to anyone.

I have learned in my past years that some people don’t deserve all of your trust but there are some people who are worthy of such a thing. Trust is the bond between friends, teachers, professionals and lovers. Some bonds don’t connect as well as others and some take years to strengthen. Trust is like the blind protection between you and your best friend when she tells you her deepest secret. Like the trust between student to teacher in regards to cheating, confidentiality in the business world and the responsibility of trust when you say “I do.” But just because I have trust issues doesn’t mean I will ever give up on love, or friendships or anything. When you find someone who is worthy of your trust you will be so deeply amazed that you will forget about how hard it is to trust people. The silent protection will guard your head and heart and your convictions about others will soon pass away. That is the most fragile part about me, but it is also my strongest connection.


About jaelisawesome

I am currently a senior at Randolph College, founded as Randolph-Macon Woman's College in 1891, majoring in Political Science: International Relations with minors in Spanish and Studio Art. Born and raised in Richmond, Virginia I believe that I have significant contributions to make to the world of diplomacy and US foreign policy. As Student Government President I am the liaison between the students and the faculty and administration, as well as the student representative to the Board of Trustees. I also serve as the Co-President of an all female a cappella group Songshine. I am known for being involved in any and every aspect at school. Some of my passions include playing on the volleyball and tennis teams, singing in almost every group at my school, performing in my very first musical Spring Awakening in the theatre department to taking orders as a barista at the schools’ coffee shop Main Grounds. After I graduate in May 2012, I aspire to attend the Master of Arts in Political Science with a concentration in European Union Policy Studies one-year, 33-credit graduate program. The intensive, residential program is based wholly in Florence, Italy and results in an MA degree in Political Science from James Madison University. My goal is to spread the Love Warrior Community, meaning more people actively bringing self-love into their lives and into the lives of others, more people accepting and loving themselves as they are and more people empowered to follow their passions and share them with the world. The Love Warrior Community is as strong as those involved. By joining the Love Warrior Community, I have the opportunity to create my own self-love practice, bringing more love into my life and the lives of those around me. I will be able to influence a greater number of people and help them to see their value and worth beyond their bodies.
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1 Response to My Strongest Connection

  1. Trust is something that is earned. It can be broken, and healed.
    I’m happy that your heart is open and that you will not give up on love, or friendships or anything. “When you find someone who is worthy of your trust you will be so deeply amazed that you will forget about how hard it is to trust people. ” What a great quote!

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