It’s hard to trust someone the second time around after they already gave you one reason not to trust them. After a while their words embody the picture above: bitter, acidic and very cold. It takes a toll on me when I can’t trust a person anymore because I think over time everything they ever said was a lie. I go deep within myself to try and filter between the truth and all the lies. This place is very dark and complicated especially when trying to escape. Then when I’m finally tired of fishing through dreams, realities, hopes and wishes I finally give up and let go. It sucks when you learn that there are awful people in the world especially when the world was so much better when you thought you could give your full trust to anyone.
I have learned in my past years that some people don’t deserve all of your trust but there are some people who are worthy of such a thing. Trust is the bond between friends, teachers, professionals and lovers. Some bonds don’t connect as well as others and some take years to strengthen. Trust is like the blind protection between you and your best friend when she tells you her deepest secret. Like the trust between student to teacher in regards to cheating, confidentiality in the business world and the responsibility of trust when you say “I do.” But just because I have trust issues doesn’t mean I will ever give up on love, or friendships or anything. When you find someone who is worthy of your trust you will be so deeply amazed that you will forget about how hard it is to trust people. The silent protection will guard your head and heart and your convictions about others will soon pass away. That is the most fragile part about me, but it is also my strongest connection.