I Don’t Know What To Write

As I’m writing the title of this post, I Don’t Know What To Write, I’m remembering the prompt for February, What would love do?

For me, love would write.

Since January 2011, I have tried to “force” myself to write self-love posts here daily, or at least consistently, and I’ve always felt better for doing it, but I also felt ashamed when days, weeks or even months passed by without me writing a self-love post to share here.

I just realized a few minutes ago, that I actually crave to write self-love posts each day now. It’s cathartic. It’s relaxing. It helps organize and calm my thoughts. It helps focus me on what’s important. It reminds me that using self-love as a guiding factor brings balance into my life and with that joy and excitement and heightened passion for life.

It’s pretty exciting to feel the effects of the writing. I’ve felt it before, but I feel like it’s in me now. It’s a part of me. Starting the 10 Minute Self-Love Writing Challenge last month helped bring the consistency of self-love writing back into my life and it helped me to not feel ashamed or bad when I missed a day or more in between posts. It helped the realization sink in that the practice of me writing self-love posts is a personal practice and I do it for me. In the past I’ve felt like I had to write self-love posts to keep content flowing in the group blog.

What would love do?

Love would take the time to reflect on my growth, my journey and what I want from life and from myself.

I imagine the evolution that I have gone through in these past 20 months, since I’ve graduated from college, being similar to the evolution of the earth’s 4.5 billion years being condensed into a 200 page textbook.

The evolution happened somewhat fluidly, it happened quickly and the transformations were expansive and both expected and unexpected. There were some rough patches, but overall, it’s been pretty amazing. All of the experiences have been so rich and diverse and unexpected and better than I could have ever imagined, even the darker periods — because those were part of my evolution.

Love would recognize that I’m getting better at letting go and saying no when I need to. This helps ten fold with bringing more balance into my life because it allows me to have more free time, more time for myself and more time for what I need. Lately, it has allowed me more time for rest and sleep.

Love would recognize that I’m pushing through my comfort zone day by day and would then smile and remember that living outside of my comfort zone was one of my main goals in my 1 Year Road Map for 2012, and for my life.

Love would recognize that my voice is getting stronger, to speak up for what I want, to speak up for what I don’t want and to speak up for what I believe in. My voice is getting stronger in my writing and it’s getting stronger when I speak to others in-person on a daily basis. When you live a closeted life, one thing you give up is your voice.

Recently, I’ve noticed how powerful, natural and strong my conversations have been. I remember the beginning of this past January I made a note to be honest and open in my self-love writing and I’m seeing that have positive effects outside of my writing.

What would love do?

Love and I will continue to push through my comfort zone and will continue to strive for living more openly, with myself and others. Love will continue to take risks and put myself, my beliefs and my energy out into the world. Love will continue to listen to my heart, to my body and to my needs and will act from a place of self-love to bring the balance that I want in my life.

Love will let go of worry and negative stress and love will allow me to live in the moment, reflect when necessary and plan when needed.

Most of all, love will love me unconditionally, forever and always. And love will teach me to love others as I love myself.

Emelina Minero writes for Curve Magazine and EDGE Gay Media Network. She’s launching her own progressive LGBTQ publication, The Human Experience. She’s a Connection Connoisseur, Networking Maven and Self-Love Enthusiast. She founded Community Bucket List and co-founded the Love Warrior Community. Find her on Twitter, @CommKr8veWriter.

Go here to submit your self-love post guided by the question, What Would Love Do?: Share your writing with the Self-Love Warrior group blog!, here to see a list of all self-love writing submitted for this event & to get a run down of what’s going on & here to join the event via the Official Facebook Event page & to get updates on the 10 Minute Self-Love Writing/What Would Love Do? Challenge.

About emelinaminero

I'm passionate about people, community, self-love and the diversity in the human experience.
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