All from a Tweet, or a dream?
I’m a huge Twitter fanatic. So this morning, naturally, one of the first things I did — I wrote a tweet.
MY TWEET —> “While dreaming, a healer told me that everything has energy. The difference between life & death is energy. I had to break the evil crayons.”
I told my mom my tweet over breakfast.
Her response: “Evil crayons? I don’t get it.”
I thought maybe my insertions of small dream descriptions may have interrupted the flow of my tweet. So I repeated it without pause.
After the second, “I don’t get it” I went into description dream mode.
I was on this long journey with a group of friends. We transversed through oceans, lands of different terrains and found obstacles such has Moby Dick sized whales, imagined sharks and magic spells hovering over villages, villages filled with people with spears — trying to kill us, enchant us or both.
Eventually a battle broke out. We had to grab the spears from the villagers and lightly stab them with it, breaking their skin to break the spell. We realized that these were good people, we just had to release them from being entrapped by the will of others.
Quickly, we got many of them back onto the “good” side, just in time when a surge of them, a collected army, came running at us with thousands of spears. I ran into them headfirst with their own spears.
We fought, and we were winning. Their army was thinning quickly, but someone came running out from the castle telling us that the portal from our world was closing. An omniscient voice told us that we had two options: We could continue to fight, and we would win, but we would be stuck in this world forever, never able to return home — Or we could return home, making it through the portal just in time, but we would leave these innocent people to die.
I didn’t believe the voice. There had to be some way to do both. I kept on fighting and there were no more “evil” people left, just crayons. I began breaking the crayons in half to release their bad energy. We had to rid this world of all its bad energy before I could return home.
I was struggling with breaking the crayon stubs in half; they were already so small. A healer/teacher came to me and said we had to break all of the evil crayons, but we didn’t have to break the felt (which I know is a cloth, but in my dream it looked very similar to the crayons). I asked him what the difference was between the crayons and the felt.
He told me that everything has energy. The difference between life and death is energy. (These felts must have lacked energy.)
I woke up after he told me that everything has energy, but when I was telling my mom my dream — I realized it was layered with all of this meaning. I’m a huge believer that everything is made up of energy. Everything takes and releases energy.
Before I could go back home, I had to release all of the bad energy from the village, from these people that were captured under someone else’s spell. I had to release them.
Perhaps before I can feel at home with myself and move forward with my passions and goals contently, I have to release my bad energy. I have to release my frustrations and grudges.
What spell am I under? Anything that is imposed by someone else. Anything that I’m doing that I don’t truly want to do, but that I do begrudgingly for others. These actions, that I have the power to choose to do or not, weigh me down. They fill me with negative energy which slows me down in my progress towards my passions, which slows me down with negative energy, which not only affects me, but it affects those I interact with.
My negative energy is like that spell that had enchanted the whole village. I have the choice of whether or not I want to release myself from this spell and invite it into my home, into my daily thoughts, actions and interactions with others. I can choose to go home without this bad energy.
If I cleanse my energy, and am aware of how my thoughts and actions are affecting me and thus those around me, then I can choose to bring in positive energy into my life. Bringing me and those who are around me often more joy.
I’m down for an energy cleanse. What this means exactly? I’m not sure yet, but I need to examine what in my life brings me down and what am I allowing to take my energy away. After I realize what I am doing that is affecting me negatively and the situations that I put myself in that affect me negatively, I can then stop those actions and stop putting myself in those situations.
My dream made me realize what I already know and just needed to remember — I have all the answers. All the wisdom I need is within me. I just have to release myself from the desires of others and stand firm in what I want and need.
When you come at a crossroads and you need to make a decision, sit quietly with yourself and ask yourself, “What do I need? What do I want? Will Choosing X bring fulfillment into my life or will I regret it and do it grudgingly?”
Emelina Minero writes for Curve Magazine and EDGE Media Network. She’s working on launching her own progressive LGBTQ publication. She’s a Connection Connoisseur, Networking Maven and Self-Love Enthusiast. She founded Community Bucket List and co-founded the Love Warrior Community. Find her on Twitter, @CommKr8veWriter.