Active Self-Love Work Every Day Until My Birthday
I slept in today until about 11:20am. Which is amazing, since I’ve been waking up around 3, 4, and 5 am these past few days. I needed the sleep.
I originally woke up around 5 am this morning, and I could have gotten up and started my day, but I also could have easily fallen back asleep, which is what I chose to do.
I woke up a few more times, once around 8:20 am when my sister called me to go for a jog with her in the morning. Every morning around 8:00 am she calls me to join her for her morning jog. Lately I’ve been biking with her, as she jogs.
I told myself a few days ago that I’ll always say yes when she calls so I can start out each day with exercise, with sister and niece time, and with being outside in the fresh air and sun.
Today I broke my commitment with myself and said no, but I’m glad I did because I was listening to my body and what it needed.
I prefer to exercise in the morning, and when I start my morning with exercise, it makes me feel great, but I can exercise at any time of the day. Once I wake up for the morning, I can’t regain that consistent block of sleep. If I take a nap later in the day, it’s not the same as sleeping 8 hours, instead of 6.
Out of all of the self-love actions I can take, sleep is the hardest for me to work on. My ill sleeping habits is the one thing (besides caffeine) that I’m least willing to change.
And it’s the most important for me to change. One of the things that brings me the most joy and happiness in this world is being filled with high ecstatic energy. If I’m energized, I feel like I can take on anything, do anything, nothing can bring me down. If I’m tired and have low energy, I’m more susceptible to self-doubt, insecurities, negativity, irritability, and the “I can’t” mentality.
So yesterday, after a few days of getting little sleep, I let myself nap. I woke up agitated after my evening nap, when my family asked if I wanted to go out to dinner with them. I needed to get work done. I got very little work done all day (because I was napping from extreme tiredness from not sleeping consistently the previous days), but I really wanted to go out to dinner with them because it would be my niece’s, Ninel’s first time going out to eat, and it would be Matt and Renee’s first time going out to eat since Ninel was born.
So I went out to dinner with my family, and was frustrated with myself at first for not sticking to my boundaries of saying “yes” and “no” when I know I need to get stuff done, but I made my decision, and I let go of my stress when I was out with my family, and I was able to live in the present moment with them, and had the most amazing quality time with my family.
It was such a loving, warm and awesome environment. We went to a new Mexican restaurant and our waitress was super awesome and had great energy. She was going to Hawaii for the first time with her two daughters, a dream she always had, and was nervous to travel alone with her daughters, to a place where she didn’t know anybody. My sister, Renee, gave Patricia her number and told her to call her if she had any questions about Hawaii, since Matt is from Hawaii and Renee lived there for a few years with Matt.
It was so cool to see our family and my sister bond with this person that we just met. We created an instant community and bond, and it felt amazing.
I was so glad that I went out to dinner with my family, that I was part of Ninel’s first restaurant experience, and that I was able to let go of my irritability and frustration due to my eccessive tiredness.
When I got home, I went to sleep. I knew there were things that I needed to do, but I wasn’t in a state to do them. I could have stayed up late, getting them done, being very tired, and not treating my body and mind well, or I could have let myself go to sleep, listened to my body, woke up when my body and mind wanted to get up, and started my day fresh, energized, and in a positive state to start my day productively. I chose the latter. 🙂
It’s 2:01 pm, and I didn’t get as much accomplished as I wanted to so far, but I still have the whole rest of the day to complete my tasks, and worrying about them being undone will only slow me down, cause me stress, and bring me down. So why should I do that? 🙂
I’m drinking a double spark (energy drink powder) mixed with an EmergenC. 🙂 I’m excited to continue my day. 🙂
Emelina Minero writes for Curve Magazine and EDGE Media Network. She’s working on launching her own progressive LGBTQ publication. She’s a Connection Connoisseur, Networking Maven and Self-Love Enthusiast. She founded Community Bucket List and co-founded the Love Warrior Community. Find her on Twitter, @CommKr8veWriter.