I’ve noticed that I’ve needed to count my blessings before getting out of bed, off and on, this past week. It’s unusual for me to not wake up happy to greet the day. When this happens, I know something is interfering with my joy for life. Counting my blessings reminds me that all is well. Appreciating the loving people in my life is one of my “go to” tools when I need to “amp” up my happiness quota.
This year, this subtle melancholy is not a surprise. The anniversary of my mother’s death is quickly approaching. I carry her love and joy in my heart, and in my memories. I also experience my grief about the loss of her physical presence through my emotions and body sensations.
Today, I needed to reach into my “tool bag” and get something else to add to my “count my blessings tool”. I choose to use my SoulCollage® cards. I turned them over, so I couldn’t see what they were. This allowed me to use my intuition vs. my conscious mind. I spread them across my bed and prayerfully chose one.
The card I choose was my “Joyful Abundance” card! Just what the doctor ordered! It’s funny how that happens. It’s my card that features a young woman holding brightly colored shopping bags in both hands, raised up above her head. She’s got this great smile and bright bangles on her arms. I glued her image on top of a bright orange flower.
This card symbolizes abundance, and joy to me. Using the “I am the one who” refrain, I spoke from this card this morning before work.
“I am the one who is joyful.”
“I am the one who relishes abundance.”
“I am the one who has fun.”
“I am the one who knows there is enough.”
“I am the one who is grateful.”
“I am the one who is playful.”
“I am the one who enjoys life.”
“I am the one who says, “Come join me!”
It was good to get in contact with this part of myself again. Her contagious joyful nature accompanied me to work today. I can still be aware of my sadness about the loss of my mother, and at the same time I can be joyful to be alive and aware of the abundance all around me.
I’m going to continue using my SoulCollage® cards more regularly again. The process allows me to stay focused on aspects of myself that may go unnoticed without the reminder.
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Michelle Minero is a licensed marriage family therapist who specializes in eating disorder recovery. She created an intensive outpatient eating disorder program in 2000, brought ANAD (Anorexia Nervosa and Associated Disorders, Inc.) to Petaluma shortly after and founded EDRS (Eating Disorder Recovery Support, Inc.), a Marin and Sonoma County based 501(c)3 non-profit organization in 2005. In 2011, Michelle co-founded the Love Warrior Community with her daughter, Emelina, an online community that helps people cultivate self-love, self-acceptance and body acceptance through creative expression. Michelle is finishing her book, Self-Love: The Only Diet That Works, and her dream is to see a world filled with people who love themselves and their bodies. Connect with Michelle on Facebook and Twitter and help spread the Self-Love Movement!