It’s crazy what happens when I listen to my body. My stress levels have gone down by a thousand and one, literally. 🙂 When I take away the time rush mentality, it’s like living in a new world, full of posibilities, relaxation, and happiness. If I don’t get a thousand and one things done in one day, I know that it’s not the end of the world. If it takes me 3 days to finish one task, so I can focus on more immediate tasks and deadlines, that’s fine. It’s a cool concept, not rushing.
And sleep! My gosh is sleep amazing. I use to think little of sleep. There’s so much that I want to do, explore, enjoy, and learn, and I thought why sleep? But sleep helps me enjoy my time spent awake. I’m more alert, not cranky, and have more energy to enjoy my days. I’m also more productive.
Where am I in my self-love goals of making the change I want most in my life? Where am I in restructuring my business? I have done a little research, but that’s about it in the way of physical work for these past few days. It’s been more of a mental game. I feel like I have been mentally preparing.
I feel like big dreams or plans are viewed as absurd to many, and are usually shot down by others when spoken aloud. That has been my experience.
For my senior project in high school I wanted to put on a show. I decided that I wanted to put on the female version of GQ (Gentlemen’s Quarterly) that my high school put on every year. It was a big production that the Leadership class spent months on preparing. It was a big event that the whole school looked forward to, and it was only for men. So I wanted to make something similar for women. It was a lot of work, and there were road bumps along the way where the administration told me I couldn’t do it, or that it would be too much of a problem. In reality, they thought it would be a hassel for them, that it would mean work for them, and not a lot of people like to take on extra work in our busy society. In reality, it meant no extra work for them, but the idea of it sounded daunting, and too big. I ended up going through with it, and it was a blast. I held it at the Lucchessi Center, and donated the profits to Building Homes Building Hope, an organization I was part of going into my senior year of high school, where we went to the Dominican Republic to build homes.
I’ve had similar experiences like this, where I came up with big ideas, and the majority shut them down. Sometimes I didn’t listen to the majority, and I went through with my ideas, and they turned out amazing, changing the minds of those who originially opposed me, and other times, I let their voices override my desire to follow through with my ideas.
I feel like my business idea is one of those big ideas. I graduated from college this past May, about 8 months ago, and I jumped into a freelance web design/internet marketing career, and now I want to take on employees and run a larger business. I’m 23. I have a great idea, a solid plan that needs to be fine tuned, and I think I’ll be very successful if I go through with my plan.
It’s kind of a crazy concept to tell others, that I’m not living the 9 to 5 job or being employed by someone else. I have ran into old friends and aquatenances and they ask what I’m doing, and I say freelance work, and they counter jokingly with, “So you’re unemployed?”
Speaking my dreams out loud is one step. I’ve been talking about this with my friends lately, and writing about it when askd what I’m doing with my life, and at first I noticed myself hesitant to talk about my plans, but I’ve noticed myself becoming more confident in saying it. I have been embracing it. I believe in it. I know it won’t be a piece of cake, but I feel that in many ways it will be easy to implement because I’m confident in my abilities, and I have envisioned it happening so many times that I already feel like it’s starting to happen.
So, these past few days I have been mentally preparing. I have been envisioning myself creating my website, applications, different programs for my employees. I envisioned more clients, and I’m starting to gather a list of people who want websites now. I envisioned myself going over the business aspect, discussing taxes, etc. It’s exciting.
I started reading a new book today, Collaborative Web Development: Strategies and Best Practices for Web Teams by Jessica Burdman. It was an optional text book for a class I’m taking. It’s about managing virtual teams for web design projects. It’s perfect because I envision myself running virtual teams, and I see my employees living all over the country. I was also stoked that the author was a woman. It’s not often that you find female writers on computer subjects.
What have I been doing to make my current dream come true and to make the change that I want most in life right now?
I’ve been reading, researching, and mentally preparing. 🙂 Tomorrow, I see myself brainstorming, and creating a chart for my website. I’m excited. 🙂
Emelina Minero writes for Curve Magazine and EDGE Media Network. She’s working on launching her own progressive LGBTQ publication. She’s a Connection Connoisseur, Networking Maven and Self-Love Enthusiast. She founded Community Bucket List and co-founded the Love Warrior Community. Find her on Twitter, @CommKr8veWriter.