Dr. Seuss: Self-Love Day 11

“As vast as your vision can show,

As high as your highest dreams grow,

As far as your passion can reach –

These are the places you’ll go.”

-Dr. Seuss

I have been watching this show this past week, Pretty Little Liars. One of my best friends introduced it to me about a week ago, and since then I have gotten myself up-to-date to the current episode. Secrets play a big part in this show.

Yesterday, day 11 of the Self-Love Challenge, self-doubt creeped back into my thoughts. It felt horrible. It feels like this tar is writhing throughout your body, slowly suffocating and contaminating every inch of you. It feels dark. It feels heavy.

After 10 days of actively practicing self-love, and feeling its energy, to feel the energy of self-doubt – it’s like night and day.

I compare self-doubt with secret keeping. There’s different levels of secret keeping. I’m referring to the level of secret keeping throughout the show, Pretty Little Liars. It’s dangerous. It’s harmful. It’s a burden. You have to hide something – because if you release it into the world, you’re scared of what will happen.

That’s how self-doubt feels. The thoughts alone of self-doubt, to release them into your mind is a toxin.

It’s fine to feel them, everyone feels self-doubt. Everyone has insecurities, but everyone has the choice to confront those insecurities, to recognize when they are occurring, to ask yourself why, and to stop them. But it’s not as easy to do that as it is to write or say it.

Yesterday I let my self-doubt thoughts roam around. I let them play with each other, have philosophical discussions and tea parties. I fed them cookies. I fed them. I thought them over and over again. I was conscious throughout the day to stop that thought pattern, to change it, but it didn’t happen so easily.

Yesterday was a good/bad day. 🙂 I work from the internet, and I get joy else where, but I also get pleasure from the internet. For example, I watched Pretty Little Liars via my computer because that is where I am able to access the episodes that I can’t access via the TV. I had about 30 minutes of internet access yesterday. Throughout the whole day, there was no internet at my house, our Linkseys broke.

Yesterday made me realize that I put a lot of emphasis on my computer. All of the work I do is from my computer, and a lot of my down time is done with my computer. What did I do instead? I read, and finished The 4-Hour Work Week. I slept, a lot. I biked to my sister’s house, let out her dogs, then played with them for a while. I cleaned the kitchen back at home. I didn’t do too much that was different from my usual days, but I did develop the time-vacuum mentality. The mentality that makes me rush, and tells me that there is not enough time in the day. When without the internet, and thus my work, there was all the time in the world.

I kept on thinking that it would start back up again, and so I only had so much time to do x or b before I would start working again. I was telling myself all of the things I couldn’t do, when in retrospective, I had the whole day to do whatever I wanted to do. It was an official day off from work, and what did I do with most of it? I slept. Which was good in some respect, my body was able to rest, but I also slept because I didn’t know what to do, and I thought I had no time. It was my default response.

Overall, it was a good day. I was relatively relaxed, and if a couple months ago I was to experience this kind of day, it would render me angry and frustrated, that I couldn’t be productive throughout the day. I know now that there are other ways to be productive outside of work.

Yesterday was a good reminder of how far I have come to be able to enjoy myself, and how far I have come in my ability to relax and “do nothing”. Yesterday also showed me that if only I could have let go more of the need to do something productive, and could have let go of my worry, I could have realized that I had the whole day open to me to not think of work, and to go for a nice hike, or to pick up another book, or to do something beyond sleeping.

On my work days, I feel like I have more free time then I did yesterday, when I was doing nothing work related, which is good. It means I enjoy my work, and find balance within it. But I think it would be a nice thing to develop to be able to completely relax with full days off, and to give myself full days off.

Thoughts are powerful. They shape your perspective. They shape how you view the world. They shape how you feel, and how you act. They shape your every experience.

Like Dr. Seuss says,

“As vast as your vision can show,

As high as your highest dreams grow,

As far as your passion can reach –

These are the places you’ll go.”

How I feel, and what I do each day, is determined by my thoughts. If I let worry or self-doubt define my day, then on a day when I have all the time in the world open to me, I can feel confined, and on a day when I have to work, if I fill my thoughts with love, then I can feel free.


EmelinaEmelina Minero writes for Curve Magazine and EDGE Gay Media Network, and is Curve’s Social Media Manager. She’s launching her own progressive LGBTQ publication, The Human Experience. She’s a Connection Connoisseur, Networking Maven and Self-Love Enthusiast. She founded Community Bucket List and co-founded the Love Warrior Community. Find her on Twitter, @CommKr8veWriter.

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