Today is the 3rd day of my Self-Love Pledge. I lit my candles, and chose from my community suite of my Soul Collage® cards today. I picked my “Steven in Heaven” card.
Steve is my nephew who died from brain cancer 3 years ago. His energy guided me today.
He was all about family. This actually created some inner strife for me this morning.
I meet with a group of colleagues once a month to study and consult about our cases through the lens of AEDP (Accelerated Experiential Dynamic Psychotherapy).
Today was the day of my meeting. It was also the day my middle daughter went back to college for the next quarter.
I happened to choose my “Steven in Heaven” card and spoke from the images in the collage, right before my daughter was preparing to leave for the airport. I began second guessing myself.
Since “I am the one who loves my family and makes it a priority”, should I cancel my group, and go with my husband and son to take my daughter to the airport? I would then be able to visit my mother-in-law, who I love dearly, in San Francisco.
It seemed like too much to change with so little time. I knew my daughter was O.K. with me going to my consultation/training group, and I had also scheduled an acupuncture apt. the month before, for after the group.
What would Self-Love do? I wasn’t clear, but headed off to my group. I spoke about my ambivalence in the group, which helped.
Later, while lying on the acupuncture table, relaxing, and listening to the soothing music, I realized I had made the right choice for myself.
My health is important, and I was following through with my self-care.
When I got home, I called my daughter and spoke to her as she was getting on the bus to go to campus for her evening class. She had a good flight, and was doing well.
I called my mother-in-law to let her know that I love her.
Sometimes choosing how to love myself can be hard to balance with the love I have for my family. I suppose that is a good problem to have!
Michelle Minero is a licensed marriage family therapist who specializes in eating disorder recovery. She created an intensive outpatient eating disorder program in 2000, brought ANAD (Anorexia Nervosa and Associated Disorders, Inc.) to Petaluma shortly after and founded EDRS (Eating Disorder Recovery Support, Inc.), a Marin and Sonoma County based 501(c)3 non-profit organization in 2005. In 2011, Michelle co-founded the Love Warrior Community with her daughter, Emelina, an online community that helps people cultivate self-love, self-acceptance and body acceptance through creative expression. Michelle is finishing her book, Self-Love: The Only Diet That Works, and her dream is to see a world filled with people who love themselves and their bodies. Connect with Michelle on Facebook and Twitter and help spread the Self-Love Movement!